Anyways…
Looking back, I am grateful that Allah showered me with so many blessings especially when it comes to health. Even though I am not fit and still fat (hahaha lawak la), at my age and size, He still gives me the energy to power through. I was able to go to spin classes regularly, although towards the end of the year I wasn’t very consistent due to work. To some, this may sound like an excuse, but I genuinely couldn’t push myself further to stretch my energy after work or even on weekends.
I really needed to wind down and regulate myself mentally, emotionally and physically because, seriously, towards the end of the year, work was so damn crazy and challenging for me.
Well, in reality, the work itself was okay but I was just so damn tired of repeating myself so many times to people who, by right, should be able to grasp things easily. That took a huge mental load.
I remember talking to one of the Unit Heads and he said to me, “Well Farah… don’t take things too seriously. Sometimes you just need to let the shit hit the ceiling.” But if I let that happen, the shit will hit my head too. No?
Haha. Okay, okay, not going to write so much about work stuff.
Selain nikmat sihat yang Allah beri, I am also grateful for the rezeki He blessed me with. I could afford things without constantly worrying whether I had enough left. I could pay my debts and commitments right on time, and most importantly, I managed to save a lot too, where I self-contributing to ASB and also my EPF.
With the rezeki Allah blessed me with, I could also spend on the kind of holidays and places that I wanted to go to, and even splurge without having to worry too much about the price because I had enough. Words really cannot express how grateful and content I am with this blessing.
Not that I am overly into money or wealth, but all my life, since I was small, even with my own family, I always felt like I was menumpang. I felt like they weren’t really happy or ikhlas to provide me with what I needed, let alone what I wanted. I used to tell my husband that I just want to grab whatever I like without having to check the price tag, because all this while, I didn’t dare to ask.
This year, I travelled out of the country twice. I went for a Raya road trip to Southern Thailand (Satun–Krabi–Phuket–Hatyai) and also celebrated my birthday at Labuan Bajo (LBJ). The best one, of course, was my trip to LBJ. It was truly a healing trip, and I love LBJ with all my heart.
I will write about the trip or maybe do a detailed sharing on TikTok about it. Let’s see how. Hopefully I’ll get that strong push to actually do it, hahaha.
Sebenarnya, I do have angan-angan to monetize social media, especially TikTok, as a platform to engage with people, sharing tips, reflections, and reviews about places and things. I’ve actually prepped a few video contents already, but I still feel like I need to plan and curate things properly before posting. I think too much, but that’s just me…
I have so much more to write about the things I’m grateful for, but after a while I just feel tired reflecting and thinking about how to write it all here hahaha. I don’t think I have readers to please anyway. This is just a place for me to pour my thoughts and reflections. Nak tulis diary or journal, lagi la malas, so might as well type things here.
Oklah... I will write again soon, to continue with my 2025 reflections.
Saya cuba. :)
